I feel you. I start a new job this year and i know its going to be the same as in high school/ college. I had friends in high school, but i knew them for along time. Meeting new people or making new friends feels so weird and akward to me. I am mostly seen as a quiet guy and i feel so devastated when people try to have a conversation/ small talk with me but i only answer with few words so they don’t realize that i stutter. I don’t know if i am a shy quiet person or if my stutter made me one.