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How I Became A Stutterer :( I'm just want to share my story as a stutterer. Because every stutterer has his/her own unique story. Before that, hello, I'm a 45yo Chinese Indonesian man. And I've been a stutterer all my life, ever since junior high :( And this is my story. I was born with a defect in my vocal chord, so I was told. When I speak, even now, I can't sound like a grown-up man talking. When you hear me talk, you'll think something is blocking my vocal chord. It's not manly voice but it's not feminine voice either. I sound the worst on the phone or on the voice recorder. This is why my classmate at junior high mocked me relentlessly. The sad part was that I had exuding confidence in public speaking, when I was a kid!!! In elementary, I often hoped teachers would point me to read for my class or to do a play. Partly because I enjoyed being the center of attention. But it all changed for the worst when I was 13/14. I met a female bully. She mocked my voice, saying I sounded like a DUCK, Others follow. I received daily dose of public humiliation. Everytime I spoke in front of the class, some would QUACK. It's like undergoing theraphy, but for the worst. When I got to senior high, I realized I was a stutterer!!! Even until now, whenever I want to speak, my heart is racing... I can't breathe... And I stutter. It gets worst when I feel that I have to talk. For example, when someone gives me free ride, of course I need to say thank you. That's a must. And feeling that I must say thank you, make me stutter :( I sometimes distract myself with hitting my thigh repeatedly while speaking but it doesn't do much wonder. So here I am, a stutterer even when I'm now 45 yo.