'I know at my age I should have my crap together' none of us have got 100% of our crap together, you run your own business, you're married (happily I hope) your craps together far more than the vast majority of people everyone looks at the next person and wishes they had what they had, you might look at me and think 'damn i wish i could speak like him' and im looking right back at you thinking 'damn i wish i could find someone to marry and be with for 19 years whilst running my own business' saying vowels is overrated in comparison to what you have achieved and if you cant gain the ability not to stutter then maybe you should work more towards gaining perspective, because its everything hope you come to terms with things soon and find peace x