Not being able to find a job/venting

Not being able to find a job/venting This is a vent. I wrote (on Friday) about my job interview and how I think I messed it up because my stutter. In yes, I was right. Althoug I have skills, knowledge, motivation for this job, I wasn't the "right" person. You can guess why :) Today I have new interview. And it is killing me. Stuttering is killing me. I am becoming more and more anxious, panic attacks are my best friends (arithmia, I have feeling I can't breathe). I am highly motivated, I took some courses to improve my skills, I am "working" my ass off to show people, I have a lot to show. And nothing happens. Every interview ends the same way. And then there are my friends. Who doesn't have experiences but get the job just because they do well on interviews. How is this possible? How is this fair? I am looking for a job, where speaking is not the big part. But I guess nobody wants to hire a girl who stutters. Nobody would give me an opportunity. I had the best grades in faculty, I am highly motivated, I would do literally anything to get a job in my field. And this seems to be mission impossible. My mental health is at the bottom. I have 26 years, I would like to move out from my parents house but I can't, because I don't have full time job. It is like a vicious circle. I don't wanna compare myself to others - but is hard. Knowing that stuttering is holding me back from living a meaningul life. I tried therapy (speech therapist), but it didn't help me. I just can't live like this anymore. I accepted my stutter. I have family, friends, bf, I have social life. I just can't get a job. I know. I can take some low paid job. But why? I don't want to... I want to have job in my field. But HOW????? Thanks for reading, It helps me a lot if I write things like that :)