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Anxiety, depression and a job! Hey all, first post here, only just coming across the sub. I've had a stutter for most of my life, at least the last 20 years. It's gotten pad and worse, had its ups and down in terms of severity. Some times it's there, sometimes it's barely noticeable. Been without a job for the last 2 months and I've gotten depressed, unmotivated and have had some serious anxiety setting in for the first time in my life, I felt shit closing in, I haven't really been able to speak the last few weeks without really having to stop or just saying "Fuck it, I dont even want to speak anymore" So this, doesnt mix well with Job interviews. When I have a job and structure, I feel comfortable, I get more relaxed and actually get better when I get in a groove and get comfortable. Had a job interview today, I couldn't speak outside of the small shit Hey, Hi, Yup, Sure, Can Do. Fortunately I have it listed on my resumé "I have a speech impediment (Stutter)" so potential employers know what's up. This time it was bad, getting nothing out but the guy was totally understanding. He'd ask me a question and I had notes open on my phone typing out answers and he's reading them and continuing with his questions and such. Guy showed me around the shop and all that, showed me where I'd work and such and then told me "If you need to use your phone to communicate, or a note pad or a fuckin whiteboard, go for it! Get a way to communicate that works for you" Got a job offer on the spot which was great. Really hope this helps me get back out of this funk I've been in. Havent had any problems getting a job in the past, I wasn't nearly as bad. This time I locked up, I was unable to get a word out. Feels good to get a job again. Fingers crossed I get out of this funk.