You have a GF. You have a family. You are loved. Don't let your stutter define you, you're so much more than the way you talk! You only need to do a quick search on this subreddit to find out how people who stutter can still thrive and live enjoyable lives. You only need guidance, and from now on it must be your priority. If it's available to you, seek therapy or take the steps needed to get help. Please, don't give up.