Stutter here, i feel you man, i couldn't continue my master degree because of my stutter afraid of the presentation i have to do at the end of the year, during university i only did one project presentation which was like a nightmare and i got so frustrated and felt so helpless even thou im a good student, i promised myself that I'll never do presentation again. i forced myself into being an introvert person even thou im quite the opposite, i get really frustrated to the point of getting depressed if just someone mocks the way i say words, i distant myself from ppl and i have very few friends not to mention that i never got a girlfriend even thou my looks are fine, when a girl tries to make an eye contact with me or try to flirt with me i pretend i don't know because i don't want her to know me, in high school i used to be called gay just because everyone got in relationships except me, and when my friends ask me why i don't date i reply by "i don't have time for this" or "im too smart to be with some stupid girl" but in my mind i know the real reason. i had suicidal thoughts two years ago until i learned how enjoy being alone, i often evaded jobs that require a lot of talk just to save myself. i got this stuttering issue from my mom (she is a stutter too) but my siblings are fine. sometimes i feel sad because even in 2019 there is no cure for disorder. Sorry i wrote a lot of words and sorry for my bad english.