yeah I'm trying to find peace within myself, to focus on myself, but sometimes I can't help but wonder how much am I missing out there. even high school was brutal, although I did try to participate few times, i always felt like an extrovert trapped in this body. i wanted to go out there, speak publicly, talk to strangers, make new friends, but i couldn't help but bring myself down again. hopefully i learn how to go easy on myself in college. thank you so much for sharing your experience :)