Stay strong friend! I have periods where I can barely get a word out, and other periods where I am very close to fluent. Remember that things change and evolve, and that we have easy times and hard times, and that we have gotten through them both, and will have to do so again in the future. These things are what makes us strong people. I like to think of life as a forging process, where we are forged much like a piece of steel. Through adversity we become stronger and stronger