[Help, Advice] My view on my stutter is so strongly negative, I'm an extrovert and want to talk so much but it's like my own stutter pushes me back every time I'm with people

[Help, Advice] My view on my stutter is so strongly negative, I'm an extrovert and want to talk so much but it's like my own stutter pushes me back every time I'm with people All my life I have seen myself as some monster, that I am so different and that my stutter is blocking so much I want to do in my life, even just to have a long conversation with someone would be nice. Every conversation is such a damn struggle, even if I did not have this social anxiety I have now and every conversation seems to be some sort of struggle to other people as well. I cut conversations short, when I'm with people I think of so many things to say but I don't open my mouth to say them and it's so depressing.