Keep trying. It's not a lost cause. There is a recent post on this site, r/stutter where others who stutter tell of the various careers they have and their successful relationships. At the very least, anything you do to progress brings you closer to being more comfortable in speaking and the field of research on this diabolical condition is finally being researched. Nobody has has an answer until recently. Have hope. Please check out our new Facebook group. It's open to all kinds of treatments and will support and share tips with everyone. No one bedside us fully understands our pain. Sue https://www.facebook.com/photo.php?fbid=1908545459494342&set=gm.735784164942342&type=3&mibextid=l066kq