Drained

Drained Stuttering is so incredibly draining. It is something I think about every single second of the day. Every time I converse with someone I am always focusing on how fluent I am. And when I experience blocks, they keep repeating in my head for a long time. It’s been over a year since I graduated and I can’t find a job and every time I get close to that (via networking or job screening) I lose that opportunity by panicking and stuttering through the conversation. I feel and fear that this will never get better for me. Sorry about the all over the place rant, I am just really upset rn and have no outlet besides this one.