my father today has hurt my feelings a lot

my father today has hurt my feelings a lot i live with grandma but my dad has been on vacation for two weeks and today has been his last day, he asked me for something and i really had a hard time saying it and i stuttered a lot, and he got very nervous he started throw things and he started saying God has cursed him with me because of my disorder, I know he is completely wrong with those vain thoughts but this has definitely hurt my feelings a lot today even though he has behaved like this before but not to this point, indeed some people do not deserve to be a father