Immediately checking out of a conversation when someone mocks your stutter?

Immediately checking out of a conversation when someone mocks your stutter? Have any of you ever had someone mock your stutter mid conversation and find it uncomfortably easy to... block them from your mind afterwards? I'll give a couple examples: ​ 1. A while back, I worked at the front desk of a hotel. You can imagine how 'easy' this was as a stutterer, but with time, I became acclimated to it. I would pull out every weapon in my arsenal: ramping into words, using different words (you'd be surprised how many words exist to describe amenities), making people laugh to get additional time to speak, or even having the people naturally say the words themselves. Most of the time, I can hide behind the image of a front desk agent. Working here for a few years with the same team made falling into a routine relatively easy. Being comfortable when working is beneficial for everyone, more-so for fellow stutters. \- Anyway, one day, I was working with my team, and it was very slow. Very, very slow. So we were talking about movies. I love movies, and I can talk about movies all the time. Ironically, I love to talk. I stuttered slightly, and one of my team members mocked it for a fraction of a second, and I knew she was apologetic the second it happened. But the rest of my team understood it really got under my skin. And it did. But I let it go, not because I got over it (I clearly didn't as I'm writing about it years later) but because I immediately lost interest in her opinion of me. The sad thing is, she could see in my eyes, and so could some members of my team, that I simply did not have any opinion of her at all after that point. Now, years later, we all still talk to one another and I still don't have any opinion of her other than she is now a character in some chapter of my life. \- But my question for you all is: would you feel the same way? Do you have a similar experience to this with a similar kind of response? I've asked my dad about his opinion (he stutters too) and he gave me the classic wisdom a good father would give: people are imperfect in their own ways. You'll meet people who will unintentionally influence you, who want to be friends, who are hurt so badly they negatively impact others, or people who just... are. Whilst I can make sense of that ideology, I want to know more about this - I don't want to call it a disability because I don't want to diminish the severity of more apparent disabilities (missing an eye, paralysis, down syndrome, etc). That, of course, is debatable but not the point of discussion in this post. \--- 2. A few years ago, my friend group got slightly bigger. By this point, most of the members have been friends together for 10+ years. We've dealt with dead parents, marriages (divorces), one of us had cancer (me), college graduations, becoming homeowners, vacationing together, travelling the country together, roadtripping, going to concerts, going to the theatre, endless nights of gaming - we were all supportive of one another. Of course, it wasn't always sunshine and rainbows, but a close group of friends is as human as it gets, I think. We're socal beings, and it's nice to mingle with people who share our interests. \- Sorry, I digress once again. Now, in present time, we were all on discord chatting about nonsense, and my stutter came up once more. A little more prominent than usual. Oddly, this new member (I say new, but we've had long nights together for about 5 years now, so he's not a stranger by any means) mocks my stutter. The discord goes silent, one of the people in the chat quietly mentions that it wasn't cool, and then an awkward sounding apology gets thrusted onto me. I should mention, in the now 15 years of friendship, not one of these guys has ever commented on my stutter except to ask about the mental process I go through to prevent it. But he mocked it nonetheless. It felt strange. No one in the group had ever done it before. I noticed something immediately and it was that this particular instance hurt me a little. Just a little. Not enough to emotionally upset me, but enough for me to write a thousand word post for the first time in a very, very long time. The second thing I noticed was that I simply did not care for his opinion of me beyond that point. Which isn't to say I value myself based on someone else's investment in me - no one should value themselves through someone else's eyes. But... something beyond indifference took hold of me. And I sat there, swinging around on Spider-Man, listening to my friends get into a discussion about this. A good chunk know I'm still listening but I was actively choosing not to speak. I knew he meant his apology - maybe he’s never truly apologised to someone from the bottom of his heart - but I simply did not need his apology. \- I understand that there is a mental ball between guys in a conversation. The ball is thrown back and forth to make sure everyone's on their toes. But you don't step on your friend's toes. Normally. Especially if your friend is playing with his shoes perpetually tied, and there isn't anything he can do about it, and there isn't anything he hasn't thought of to help mitigate the burning, visceral, desire to run as fast as he can with his friends; to show how high he can jump; to tell someone that one joke that can get them out of a depressive episode; or to simply walk without fear of tripping and interrupting the person near him. ​ Anyway, back to my question in the first example: Have any of you ever felt some way similar to this, or should I get therapy? I would love to read your thoughts. I apologise for the formating, I tried to make it easy to read, but I'm not used to posting walls of text on reddit.