If it's true that classical [conditioning](https://www.reddit.com/media?url=https%3A%2F%2Fi.redd.it%2F53tdhmpm6gcc1.png) has sensatized you to your name, then you can google for strategies to resolve/unlearn this conditioned response. Perhaps you can do **desensitization** [exercises](https://www.google.com/search?q=desensitization+strategies+triggers) by gradually exposing yourself to your name without avoiding the initial speech plan, without reducing triggers.