You clearly have a confidence that I don't have. I've tried so many times to pretend to be confident and sure of myself. Then with each successive stutter that confidence fades away to where I presently am. It eventually feels fake to pretend. That's why I was just thinking about telling them. I'm terrified to tell myself the things you've said. I know I can be a teacher. However, it's similiar to your military situation in that I have to relocate and pay thousands of dollars to get this certification, while not working. I feel that every decision with stuttering always has to be gigantic like this and of course it just can't be small. I feel that by giving me the certification they have to "endorse" me. I just have a fear that they won't want too. I don't know I'm clearly still lost.