"at your worst" -- you were stuttering! if thats you at your worst then you are a very good person. you were having a hard time, i get it, but stuttering isn't you at your worst. if you're a guy you're basically just trying to get girls to like you, not hate you or make them feel uncomfortable. it's not about "evening the scales" against girls, it's about forming positive relationships because those help you. if you really don't like a girl just ignore her. honestly by showing girls that you're okay with it i've found that they'll be much more positive towards you.