You are not alone dude :) just accept it, it is hard I know. I'm not fully done with accepting myself yet. But it's getting better. I have social anxiety and depression. Kicking it through every single day. It may be hard for now but it will get better, trust me. You will accept yourself and so will everybody else. If they don't it's not your problem. Wishing you the best dude :)) have a great day.