commentr/StutterJuly 31, 2020

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Great insight. I think my stutter comes out in the following: * Anxiety - thoughts of **incompetence** and that I'm being judged by my stutter. I have been seeing a therapist to help reframe, but in the moment it's so tough, especially when you're being televised or have several eyes looking at you. * Lying - I stutter often when I lie because I'm thinking throughout the 'lie' as I speak and this takes away from being in the moment. * Coupled with lying, is it's hard to sell something I don't believe in. I cannot sell or make people excited about a decision which I believe to be incorrect or flawed. I also have to be careful with telling the public certain information which is either confidential or can be miscontrued without knowing the facts. I'm on my verbal tip-toes a lot. If it were up to me, I'd be more frank and stoic vs fluffy (i.e, "*This is how it is, this is why. We had many options but this is the best one*" vs "*We're pleased to be going in this direction because we've identified this to be the best option for our customers"*). Add this to the fact that I know I have to avoid certain words that are heavy on consonants and my mind is thinking about a bunch of things at once. This is also what makes interviews soooooo challenging. It may seem like I don't like my job, but I do. This is about 25% of my job which I am not a fan of, but I want to get better at it because I'm competent in virtually all other areas and want to continue moving my career along.

Themes

Anticipation & AvoidanceCauses & VariabilityEmotional Experience

Subthemes

Overthinking & MonitoringStress & Fight/FlightPropositionality & WeightAnxiety & Social Judgment

Codes (2)

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