mental breakdown

mental breakdown I just had a mental breakdown, I cried for tye first time in 2 years and why? Because I couldn't say a fucking word. I'm a pathetic loser I know, crying over a fucking word. I just can't do this shit, never saying what I wanna say, words not coming out, everyone looking at me like I am some kind of damn idiot. I'm tired of it, why can't I say 1 damn word right? Why can't I just talk normally? I can't do it no more. I've never rly been made fun of cause of it but my biggest fear is getting made fun of. I'm done.