True I hope I can get the same mental toughness as you but the face of rejection from various institutes repeatedly on face because I stutter has kind of shattered me to the core . It's just sad at this point for me how everything I planned with regards to academics turned out to be god awful for me and how this particular hinderance ruins every sense of opportunity I look up to - It's just painful at this point , to an extent I have started to take pity on myself .