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Uncomfortable Interview Reflections Hey everyone! Hope quarantine is treating you well. I've scrolled through this reddit page in the past whenever I'm feeling low, but this is the first time I've actively felt like commenting. I'm sure a lot of you will be able to relate. So here goes: I just had an online Zoom interview for a club position. The 2 or 3 days leading up to the interview, I was panicky, not because I was scared of the interview itself, but of stuttering during it. I know in my mind that the anxiety will only make it worse, but its an impulse you can't control. The day before, I spent at least an hour and a half practicing. I practiced talking slow, I practiced taking breaths in the middle, everything. Yet when the the interview started, my mind just when on autopilot and I reverted back to the same old me. The worst part isn't even the stuttering. Its the fact that I know exactly what I want to say, but have to think of a word to prevent the embarrassing block, which makes it worse. I feel some relief after finishing the interview, but I can't bear the thought that there will be more interviews in the future, and that the exact same pattern will repeat again. Right now, I could care less if I get the position or not. But I'm so dejected after having so many experiences like this. Yes, I've done speech therapy in the past. Yes, I use the exercises that I was taught. But no matter what, the feeling of anxiety and having no control over this makes it worse. I know I'm as capable as everyone else. But its because of something so stupid that life is made so tough. Constantly over-analyzing things, the roller-coaster of emotions before a presentation or interview...it's a lot to handle when you wake up every morning.