I get. I truly do. I've been stuttering ever since I was born and have seen 5 different speech therapist due to the severity and at the end, the last 4 therapist have said they have no idea how to help me further. I've been bullied since elementary school and still to this day, not as severely, but I hear sly comments about it, either from my own ears or from one of my friends informing me. Yes there is no magic fix and it's very hard to deal with. Personally, I have blocks, repetitions, and prolongations. I've been yelled at for not speaking fluently, I've been hit, especially in elementary by former classmates. I understand the pain, I'm not here to say I have it worse, please don't take it that way. It's frustrating and anger inducing and most definitely aggravating not being able to ever say what you want to say. But the only way to get better is to keep talking and see a speech therapist you enjoy and feel like can help you effectively. A great example of this is one summer between 6th and 7th grade (I'm in the U.S) where I barely talked. The next school year my stutter was so severe I had to go back to my old childhood speech therapist and it was mortifying to see her disappointment. We need to keep talking no matter how tough and exhausting it is and no matter how much we just want to curl into our bed and never talk again. It's the only way to get even a little better. I believe in you, I'm here for you, you can get through this. Find friends who will be there for you if you don't already have them (which I get making friends is very difficult on its own). You got this, keep your head up and moving forward, and don't be afraid to let out your emotions. Don't keep them bottled up, as that never helps. I believe in you.