Hello. I have been there lots of times but I keep fighting it every time. Just 2 days ago I was writing to people looking for support to start a charity organisation to help people who stutter here in South Africa and Africa. Keep being your self. I think you do not have to hate yourself and neither must you keep thinking about your stutter. You are luck that their is this group where you can talk to people who understand your situation. As for my self I have been suffering for the last 47 years with no one to talk to and no support. I only discovered that there are organisation for people who stutter like me just 3 days ago.