You should join my stuttering community for professionals (people who work) who stutter that I launched a few months ago - it's free. We already have almost 200 professionals who stutter, but this will help you meet more people and build normalcy in your challenges. Feel free to join for free on my profile. Very interesting that your stutter developed later. I developed mine when I was a child. It also sounds like you experience blocks with your stutter, same as me! We know exactly what to say, but it just won't come out - trust me, I totally understand this and most people in my community also experience the same. Anxiety doesn't cause stuttering (this is well-researched) but stuttering can cause anxiety and the best way around it is to accept your stutter. Building acceptance is hard though. People who stutter represent only 1% of the population so we're constantly surrounded by people who speak differently than us. This is exactly why I created a community for professionals who stutter - feel free to join for free using the link in my bio, but overall, the idea is, when you meet more people who stutter, you start realizing it's more normal than you think. This where we can really start to build more acceptance in our speech and truly stutter freely. Another part of this acceptance journey is disclosing your stutter so you're not constantly trying to be fluent on calls - this is a huge driver of anxiety. When we disclose our stutter, we're making the other person aware of why some pauses may occur in the conversation and there's nothing wrong with that! I'm personally still working on all of this, but I fully believe that meeting other people who stutter will help you build more acceptance in your speech which in turn will reduce your anxiety. Stuttering is oftentimes more of a mental challenge than a physical one. It's just our accent at the end of the day and we can achieve just as much as someone without a stutter! :)