I understand you, heh. It's sucks that we have to struggle so much just to speak. Non-stutterers speak as easy as they breath and don't even think about it, but we have to put in an incredible amount of effort just to say a word. It's so freaking exhausting and unfair, ugh. However, we still need to live with it somehow. You know, there are a lot of jobs where you don't have to speak so much, and, moreover, if you do your work well, it doesn't matter how you speak. I hope I don't sound like it's not so bad and you need just try😅 I have really difficult time with my studying in university right now, it's difficult because of stutter, and it is literally killing me. And I don't have a clue what to do about it, I just go down, and down, and down, ugh! And I know nothing bad will happen, university professors know about my stutter, it never affected my grades, but I'm afraid of speaking so much. Well, I just wanted to say I fuck everything sometimes, too.