commentr/StutterSeptember 13, 2023
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I haven't met or heard of anyone else in my life who stutters and I also struggle a lot with social anxiety. My worst stutter/block was around 40 seconds, I believe – it felt like several hours. All by myself I very rarely stutter, if even. However, the stuttering comes back when I record videos/voice overs into a mic or even a headset. Why am I telling you this? I don't know. I've seen a couple of speech therapists in my time and they helped me improve but I don't have taken away many techniques that help me – some techniques just straight up don't work for me. Unfortunately, I can't tell you the one thing that will help you but I can share my thoughts and experiences. Recently, I have realized that not only my stutter is not my fault but also that other people have no justification or reason to talk me down for it. Everyone has their struggles and we're all fighting our own battles so who the actual f you think you are laghing at me? I've bottled up the anxiety. hid my wounds for too long. I've realized that I can stand up and that I'm supposed to say something. Honestly, I kind of look forward to being laughed at again because I will take my sweet ass time to stand up for myself. Even though "I look funny", even though "after all these years, I still stutter" and even though "we laughed up a storm but we didn't mean it". No. I'm done. The time is over. Fight me. It's part of who you are and you can be proud of that. You can change yourself in many ways, that's up to you. I found that the more I accepted my stutter, the less I stutter as well (because of a better self confidence, I'd assume). I wish that you find the mindset and the strength to stand up for yourself too. And I'm not saying you have to defeat social anxiety on the way, the anxiety will decrease as well :) Cheers

Themes

Anticipation & AvoidanceEmotional ExperienceIdentity & Disability

Subthemes

Hiding & ConcealmentAnxiety & Social JudgmentHope & MotivationIdentity & Self-PerceptionAcceptance & Pride

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