Yeah I tried but this toxicity can't totally get out of my mind maybe bc of my subconscious fears of stuttering or just OCD(I don't know if I have it). The origin of this toxic habit is my concern about stuttering because before I knew stuttering was incurable and stuttering could be very horrible as described in stuttering communities I extremely rarely got anticipations(and even if any they were negligible) and even none when I was totally distracted in 2020 as I told here. I think the only way out if I really gotta fix it on my own is to manage to forget stuttering or become distracted about it again but I think it is pretty possible but my stuttering is very mild so that common people can't recognize me as a PWS but just I want to be 'perfect'. Anyway thx for your coaching!