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My stutter is so annoying God I hate my stutter, I’m sure people in this group have it worse then me but mine is so annoying I’ll try to explain it. When I was younger I had the a-a-a type stutter. I for the most part no longer do that as often as I did but I still do it a little more often then your average Joe but it’s not really a problem. But since then I’ve developed a block stutter and it’s so annoying. I have to talk in a low pitch voiced and talk very slow. I can only say short 4-5 letter words and can’t talk in complete sentences. Whenever I stutter I mask it with “and uhhhhh” or just “uhhhh” “what’s it called” “bro like”. I used to be a funny and charming person now my humor is the type of bro humor that I only do around my guy friends “bro fuck you your a bitch” just things of that nature. I love to argue and debate but that’s impossible. I can’t talk to a girl Bc I get nervous and I do horrible when I’m nervous. When I make my self talk somewhat fluently and mask my stutter it can never be a productive conversation with someone who I just met or don’t know well. It has to be a friend and we’ll be talking about for example the new call of duty game I’ll just say “bro this game is so bad” and hell say “fr” and I’ll just say back to him “like why does the game always get worse every year “. Notice how in those conversations the most letters a word had was 6 I also stutter often when I say a 6 letter word Bc of the different sounds and syllables. Like basically I can’t have a productive intelligent convo with anyone,can’t show emotion, can’t tell a joke,etc. Whenever I talk it’s just like I said short 4-5 letter words with no complete sentences and speaking with no emotion, also talking very slowly and thinking about the next word I say so I don’t stutter. It just pisses me off Bc how am I gonna make new friends or get a girlfriend who I can make laugh and who I’m not embarrassed around. My true stutter and personality only come out around my family and when I show my true personality and talk with emotion and say what’s on my mind I always stutter and it fucking sucks.