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I know how you feel, I\`ve been through the same thing. I am 24 and I have had quite severe stuttering for the most of my life until the last year. At school in my homeland my classmates were making fun of me by copying my stutter while I was answering the teacher\`s questions or reading learned poems out loud - this is one of the worst memories. Being a foreigner with not so bright English and bachelor in Arts, I still managed to land jobs in top US banks, first at 21 and then at 23. I don\`t feel giving an advice is ethical in such case, I\`ll just share my story. Because of the stutter, I always felt inferior to others and I felt a strong need to compensate that with other skills to be able to land a job after the university. I focused on the data analysis & programming skills such as Tableau, SQL, Python etc. This helped me to stand out among other candidates and I still get invited to many interviews both finance & data analytics. Coming back to stuttering, since last two years, the situation with my stutter improved significantly, I stutter very rarely and I would say it can be 1, 2 words in a whole speech. What helped me, is exposing myself to the situations, where I have to speak and give presentations at my job, almost forcing myself. First half a year was horrible, I was feeling very uncomfortable and ended up crying after every meeting/call. I was writing what I have to say, my full presentations in the notepad (if zoom call - having it on second screen) and literally learning these by heart since when you stutter, your adrenaline is up, heart is going crazy, you are sweating, mind is blank and you forget your name, say nothing of the subject you plan to speak on so these notes & memorizing helped a lot at least to deliver the content. I also accepted my stuttering as fact, and what helped me more, people around me were very supporting encouraging me to speak and telling me I am doing a good job after every presentation. I am not sure how and why, but with time it started getting better, I started feeling more comfortable among people I work with and regarding the subjects I have to speak on - eventually it almost went away. I still have the notes on my screen every time I am presenting for seniors - not sure how that will work out when we come back to the office. Not sure if that\`s helpful info to anyone, there are different causes of stuttering, some are neurological and such methods won\`t help. I think mine is more psychological, I was extremely scared of people, of what they can think about me and my work/study performance. In general I am very prone to anxiety/panic disorders, for several years I suffered from daily severe panic attacks, hypochondria and derealization, these come back to me sometimes to this day. I just wanted to share that stutter won\`t necessarily ruin your life and career, accept it and I am sure this challenge is definitely something that will make you stronger. That\`s all in your hands.