Thank you for sharing your story. Just like in your case, stuttering usually starts in childhood so by the time someone reaches high school they had thousands of opportunities to develop ingrained negative thought patterns and behaviours around stuttering. These negative thoughts can trigger extreme anxiety. Plus you have been taken out of your comfort zone and circle of friends for the third time. That's difficult for any teenager but especially if you have experienced bullying in the past and perceive yourself as being different from everybody else. Sometimes it does feel like our brain is our own worst enemy and that's confusing because we ARE our brain, right? Wrong. Thoughts are just thoughts, they are not US. We learn thought patterns just like we learn any other habit and we can unlearn them, too. Unfortunately our brains are wired to resist change. It is a lot more economical to stay the same rather than change. So it takes a lot of practice with the right techniques to change our thought patterns. A University in Sydney, Australia are just trialling an online CBT (Cognitive Behavioural Therapy) program for teenagers who stutter. Their program for adults will be released this December. I will post the news once they are online. If you are really determined to want to change improve your stutter, I would strongly recommend finding a Speech and Language Pathologist who specialises in stuttering and can teach you techniques and help you to incorporate it into your daily speaking habits. Hope this helps. And remember: you are not alone. Today is International Stuttering Awareness Day. There are a lot of teenagers like you out there!