I feel the same way. As I get older, I look at people around me who are able to move up in their careers and be more successful and they all can talk elegantly and normally. It feels horrible for me. Even when I am good at my job, when I talk it sounds like I am an idiot. When I go to interviews it’s the same deal. I want to keep moving up in my career but I feel like my stuttering limits me and will always limit me. I imagine how I look at interviews or at meetings struggling to talk, and it kills me inside. Knowing that as I get older, I will still struggle with it and the same issues I’ve had since I was a child. However, it does motivate me. My lows are low but my highs are high. You know that no matter how you got to where you are that you had to work harder for it, and that there are people who worked as hard you, without a stutter, and still couldn’t achieve as much as you. While the average person may never appreciate or realize that, the people that love you will realize that and appreciate it. And we need to appreciate it ourselves too and love ourselves for it. We’ve had it hard but we’ve made it this far and every success we make is truly something to be proud of! Just use that burn and the feeling of failing to keep motivating and driving yourself. We are all not dealt the same cards but it does not mean we cannot be successful.