I think you made very good points. I think being more conscious about how I feel in different situations would help me recognise my triggers. It has to be a continued effort, consistency and diligence are the key. I think its just hard to keep oneself in that positive mindset all the time. It obviously depends on the person and this is where I feel I could do better. I am very self-conscious in public. I put a lot of weight on what others think of me, my actions, looks etc. Moving to this new country has sort of made me realize that people don't really care that much and I am not their focus of attention. But I just cant bring myself to internalize that. I constantly think about people looking at me and judging.. and then if I was asked to speak and I end up stammering, that would just mean the end of the glorious public image I had. Whereas in reality I am just this another dude who doesn't matter anymore than the next and that is how it should be. You have certainly given me a new way to look at things. Thank you for taking the time to write a response, you are awesome.