Hey! I get it. I've too struggled with my stutter. Now that you know that you want to turn it around, you've already taken the first step forward. I think one of the other things you should do is look for things you're interested to do, and how you can make a living out of it. It's never too late to study again either. I and another acquaintance I made on reddit, we both are working together to improve our stutter. Let me know if you'd like to join our calls, and hopefully we can be of help.