I know what you mean. When I were younger I used to fall into that trap. But im telling you with insight, I have much less blocks! I still stutter but everything is sooo smooth, my vocals dont fight me anymore like it used to. I have to say Diazepam is the best thing I have tried as a stutterer. Would it be doable to take 10mg Diazepam every 3rd day without developing an addiction? Mental addiction is ofc another thing. :)