commentr/StutterDecember 29, 2022

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I live in Malaysia. People here understands it and quite accepting. But I still feel the school didn't do anything to help stuttering children, or maybe it's just my family refuse to take me to therapy bcs of financial issue? IDK i've never asked them about it. Back in primary school, I didn't get bullied (maybe bcs im a girl and they pity me) but they sure as hell laughed at me sometimes. At the age of 8 or maybe 9 I always think about ending my life. That surely isn't normal right? In middle school I didn't tell any teachers about my stutter. So none of them knows. When I stutter the teachers would give me a weird look, then I gotta sit with a poker face for the entire class trying not to cry or smthg. Im in university now. People seemed to not care about it. I stutter mildly now that it feels almost nonexistent. But I still have this anger in me, mad at my parents for making me go through all of this by myself... Nvm. Let me just drown myself in assignments and work. Sorry, my english isn't very good 🗿

Themes

Emotional ExperienceIdentity & DisabilitySchool & Work

Subthemes

Sadness & HopelessnessHelplessness & AgencyStigma & BullyingSchool & Academic Life