Some experience with mild/medium stuttering

Some experience with mild/medium stuttering Hi! In my daily life, I speak another language, not English, but my experience with stuttering is probably similar to many people here. I struggle with certain letters, have fillers to help me say words, which then, in turn, become the words that I say to much, etc. etc. I am afraid of public speaking and try to avoid speaking in front of many people or even on the phone, if possible. However, I do have some insights that could be useful to the community. 1) My stuttering is directly affected by my mental state. It might not be true for everyone, but try to remember some situations when you for some reason could speak clearly. In my experience, it happened when I felt that I am completely 'OK' and that nothing could change that. For me this is a clear sign that my stuttering is not physical, it's psychological. 2) I speak more clearly when I am either exhausted from good exercise (e.g. after a long-long hike with a heavy backpack in the mountains) or after certain psychological technics (ecstatic dance, sitting meditation, Osho meditations, butoh dance). What unites all these situations is that I let go of inner 'pressure'. During some of the mentioned technics, I can shout and scream and express anger and other emotions. This leads me to believe that my stuttering is related to oppressed emotions. 3) During therapy, I noticed that my stuttering looks like if someone stops me in the middle of speaking. Like I am personally stopping myself from speaking and self-criticizing for what I have to say (and how I am saying this). 4) Taking into account all the points, it looks to me that my personal case of stuttering is caused by oppressed emotions of anger and directing this anger towards myself, self-criticizing, feeling guilt and/or lack of self-acceptance. In general, now I look at my stutter as a certain sign that I'm not in a good condition mentally and that I might be self-criticizing too much at the moment and/or not expressing some emotion that I currently feel. This sometimes help me notice this and bring me back to speaking clearly and feeling better about myself. ​ If you feel that your story might be similar, here is what I find useful: 1) physical exercise which gives you joy and feeling of 'release'; 2) finding a way and safe space to release emotions. For me, it means attending body-oriented work-shops, doing certain technics; 3) working with a good therapist. ​ I heard that there are cases where stuttering is caused by physical/biological reasons, but I do suspect that the majority of people stutter because of similar 'situation'. ​ I would love to know if this means anything to you and if you agree/disagree, have a similar or completely different story.