Your emotions are valid. One of the things that helped me was meeting others who stutter. There are lots of stuttering associations around the world with conferences that are a lot of fun! You’re pretty much hanging out with hundreds of others who stutter and you feel less alone (as well as share experiences and tips). If you live in the US, check out westutter.org and https://www.friendswhostutter.org/. If not, then check out https://www.isastutter.org/ for a list of countries. Check out also stuttersocial.com (virtual chats). You aren’t alone!