Guess what, almost 100% of human beings are thinking sooner or later in their lifes about suicide. Mostly it is only for a brief moment and nothing serious. Among the stutterers is the % even higher. But as I said, mostly it is nothing serious and the thought go away pretty fast. Speaking for myself, I could not be happier right now :) Buddy, try not to be an asshole. Try to be nice to people. Try not name your "angel" a bitch. If you really loved her, you would not call her a bitch. You have some real problems. The stuttering is the smallest problem for you.