How has stuttering affected your life?

How has stuttering affected your life? Ever since I was born, I’ve always had a stutter. People have always misunderstood me and only take me for granted because they think I am not a good talker or mispronouncing a word and they think it’s something else but I really don’t mean that. I’ve always been a very quiet, introverted and reserved person. Who is not very social or has a lot of friends because of my stutter. I never had a whole lot of friends or been in any intimate relationship. Because of my stutter and my personality. I was bullied at times in school & even today I have coworkers that give me a hard time too because of my quiet personality. I cannot adapt to all of this and it’s gotten to a point where I feel like I can’t live like this. And I just want to put an end to everything. From all of my years in school going all the way to graduating in college I’ve always had this issue. There’s times where it comes and goes, but it has lowered my self esteem and just how I feel about myself when it comes to interacting with others. Growing up I feel like my parents were too overly critical of me and it made my self esteem even worse & I feel the need to always live a perfectionist lifestyle with no room for mistakes because I feel like I am expected to be a perfect person or else I get criticized for every minor mistake I make. I get to anxious and nervous and it’s tough for me to control sometimes. There’s times where I can’t take it and I just mentally shut down. I feel like I am trapped, and I am constantly going through the same pattern over and over again as the years go by. Can anyone relate to this?