I got tried from trying my best with my stutter 25M

I got tried from trying my best with my stutter 25M I started to be so disappointed because of my stutter, i felt that I wasn't like that, but for a long time i thought about that a lot, and this is so difficult, Now i feel that the stutter is stopping me in life, That was a long road until now, and I really tried my best. I have amazing friends, and i have so many peoples that love me, and everyone has patience with me, i went out to so many dates and had real experiences with amazing girls; i worked as a salesman; I was on the military; I traveled; and now i am pursuing a bachelor's degree. But i feel that i cant keep going on, i dont have any power left!to go out again and try to speak, to be desprred that i cant speak normally, i don't speak with any girls or go out to dates just beacuse the stutter, i dont want to feel that perssure on myself again and to try to speak the best i can, i just cant handle it again. I don't understand why i feel like that; i did it all! even when I met my ex, we tried again and she told me that I thought that after we broke up, you went to girls beacuse this is you All the girls want to be with you, but i dont feel like that at all. i left heartbroken again but that is a story for another day Everyone loves me and appreciates it, but why can't I love myself and appreciate myself? I want to get out of that kind of desperation that makes it so hard to stutter. TL;DR: I'm trying my best even when I stutter, but I got to the point where I didn't have any power to try my best; I just want to rest from that stutter.