I’ve tried understanding it during a deep meditative state and it’s an overlay of unwanted behaviors and traumas I’ve gained over the years, I can’t tell if I’m overly sensitive but i definitely grown up with a more reactionary headspace so I can think of responses on the spot or immediately start analyzing and point things out, but in the past that used to get me in messy situations, so I unknowingly repressed what I wanted to say and how I felt bc I didn’t know if it’ll get me “punished” and it was jumbling up my brain, then during middle school I experienced getting knocked out and it gave me a pretty bad concussion but i kept it to myself because I was around people that if you told your issues to they’d get mad at you for not “knowing” better than actually helping you resolve the issue, but after that event happened I started experiencing really severe blocks, like those blocks that basically shoved the fact I had a stutter to my face so I couldn’t pretend like I didn’t have one anymore, I’ve hit a lot of progress but I’d admit it’s hard to accept it sometimes because I used to talk fine until around 4th grade but there’s no going back(apologies for the infodump)