commentr/StutterJuly 7, 2023

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I push through it. I used to use a fake name with drive throughs and places I knew they didn’t actually need my name. Now if I was actually meeting people I would have to just push through. Many people get my name wrong though and as I’m stuttering they guess my name and I just shake my head yes and go with it. But now as an adult, I push through it, challenge myself, and correct people. In Kindergarten I had a teacher who changed her voicemail each year. She would change her voicemail and say “This is Mrs. ___ Class” and then each student would say their name fast and she would end it with “leave a message after the beep”. Well… I stuttered on my own name. Therefore she thought it would be a great idea to make me go last. If anything it would have made more sense to have me go first so then other kids can go fast and make up the time I wasted. Anyway, not a smart move on the teacher. Because I stuttered on my name, we had to re-do the voicemail about 10 times. Eventually they did the voicemail and just left me out of it because I couldn’t say my name fast enough. It was quite traumatizing for little 5 year old me. I became pretty insecure about saying my own name after that point. But I’m an adult now and I can’t really avoid it. I just have to own it!

Themes

Emotional ExperienceIdentity & DisabilityAnticipation & Avoidance

Subthemes

Shame & EmbarrassmentIdentity & Self-PerceptionAvoidance & Substitution

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