I am talking with a professional. Personally, I think communication is what separates men (and people in general) and I've found that the best communicators rise to the top while lesser communicators never reach those echelons (even if they are personally successfully themselves.) People just talk circles around me. It's like I'm riding a horse while others have cars. I'm 31 and people have been trying to fix my speech since I was 5. I spent several summers going through intensive therapy and I've tried other therapies as well. I can get fluency but it comes at the price of spontaneity. I can't do controlled exercises anymore. I'm done trying to be fixed. No one is going to fix me. I wish you professional success but for me money just brought more pain because it made me realize that even with money I'm still insanely broken and completely different from the neurotypicals. I just don't know what greatness looks like for me. I just can't envision or define it. That's the problem. I can get a house and a woman but I just do not care.