Yeah I understand I had that same issue, you’re constantly interpreting their reactions and it’s useful but it comes to a point where you only think about yourself, also your perception isn’t always right, im not tryna be harsh but things like that don’t let you be heard, and be invisible in a sense, also talk with this about your gf bro if she’s in love in love with you I think the vulnerability would help you understand each other more, remember the only way to really deal with these problems are not avoiding them but going through them. For the people that bully you my best advice is to desensitize their words by just hearing it again and again until you realize what they are, words… also if you really want find something vulnerable about your bullies and make fun of them, they deserve it and last you should also watch Rick and morty, idk if you heard it but the characters stutter and they own tf out,