Hey, quick reminder that your stutter is not your fault and you should not feel guilty for "still" dealing with it. No one understands your perspective other than yourself and no one has a reason to talk you down for it. Ask yourself this: Do you not want a different job or is your anxiety keeping you from it? I know how difficult it is to tell your anxiety to shut up but I also know what loneliness and emptiness feels like and, you already mentioned it, it's not mentally constructive at all. I think I found the strength to stand up for myself and yell at others who the f they think they are for talking me down for my stutter. You are human, not machine. I wish you to find this strength yourself. I believe in you, you should too.