Does anyone else find it difficult to make friends?
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Does anyone else find it difficult to make friends? People just don’t see me as worth their friendship. No matter how nice and funny I am, how I try to relate with them, in the end I’m ignored/the last resort. Seriously- “last resort” should be my middle name. I don’t think people HATE me; I think they just.. couldn’t be assed. I also have good reason to think they may be uncomfortable around me. If my stutter is the root of this, I will just be destroyed. I’m on the quiet side I admit- but when I *do* talk I’m always warm. Talking isn’t always the easiest, of course, but I make it clear that I enjoy communicating with them. It’s not enough though. It’s enough for others but it’s never been enough for me. It kills me to think that a disability out of my control is the reason for all of this. To think that I’ll be alienated all of my life because I talk differently makes me contemplate ending it if I’m honest. I’m an introvert and genuinely enjoy my own company but I’d sure love friends like everyone else. Being friendless just makes me feel totally worthless. I don’t know how much longer I can take being blatantly looked over, snubbed, left out and forgotten. I’m sorry this turned into a vent but, don’t really have anyone to vent to lol