I feel you. Made fun of growing up. It sucks for us but honestly you have to stop focusing on what people think of you of you want to be happy in this life. I feel like focusing on my stutter makes it worse. I’m also in my 30’s now and I stop choosing to care anymore. It’s up to me to dictate how I want to live my life without caring what people say or think. You got to be strong. If I can, you can do it too!