Help with my situation - can't get a job, afraid I can't get a boyfriend, have no friends and so lost and confused with my thoughts
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Help with my situation - can't get a job, afraid I can't get a boyfriend, have no friends and so lost and confused with my thoughts Hi all. Thanks for reading and replying in advanced. Looking for new friends too so if you need someone to talk to, feel free to message me. I'll try to keep it as short as possible. So I grad college (almost 1.5 years ago) and I can't find a job. I went to a good school, had some decent temp jobs (retail) and have some good skills. I am horrible on the phone and I could tell the other person is turned off when I do a phone interview and they cut it off short. A part of this makes me scared to apply for jobs again because last year, I went on a job interview and the interviewer asked me about it (First time in my life) and said "you do realize you have to talk to people right?" in a sarcastic tone implying I can't do the job. I've had retail jobs before so I can clearly do the job but this has made me scared bc the person might say something similar. Next, I am so scared that I can't get a boyfriend. First, I'm not blessed with great looks so I feel like some man can find someone better looking who can speak better than me. I really can't die alone. My only fam is my parents and without them I have no one. I really don't. No man has approached me and no complements but I'm scared that they might find me weird and find someone else. Another one is having no friends - same thoughts as finding a guy. They might find me weird and not want to be friends with me. Not too worried about this but when I transferred to my school from CC, I tried to talk to new people and invite them to hang out but they never follow through. Lastly, I'm fed up with this. I don't know how or what I need to do to "accept" it or how to live with it if I can't cure it. I tried speech therapy and nothing works. Every day, I'm discouraged. I don't like talking on the phone and I hate going out to events or stuff where i have to talk to people and I don't want to be this way. I know there's such thing as "don't let it define you" or similar statements that say you can do it even though you have it, I really hate it and question why me? Who I want to be is the opposite of who I am and I want to be the person I want to be and this is holding me back. Help!