Do whatever works for you, but for me the shame of having to use a soundboard of myself would far surpass that of blocking for some reason. I'm having a hard time "coming out" in my daily life as well, but this would feel like throwing in the towel to me and I couldn't do it. It's kind of in the same vein as sometimes I think about just dropping the first letter of a word I'm blocking on and can't bring myself to.